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Fasting... day 11, 12, 13

These days have been plenty of battles... I haven't had time to write but it has been hard since I have less time to pray or to do my devotion... just 1h or 1h 30 min a day... which is too little for me... I'm hungrier for more of Him now... today a young friend that was coming to my church came to visit. We taught him why mormon religion is not a good option at all for anybody's life..We explained him very well... and I hope God continues to work on him, because this work is not ours but the Lord's.

Fasting....day 9 and 10

It is getting tough... but still on the battle and knowing Jesus gave me already the victory and in the middle of the battle I'm just enjoying His presence so much! He told me do not be afraid, I already won! and I was like: great!! yes! thanks!! yay!
Yesterday I had so much fun with the people of the day center at the Jeffrey Hale Hospital! I love old people, they are so kind and loving! I like to listen to them and to smile at them and to make them feel happy! I went as a volunteer, helping with the kitchen and being with the elderly!! I've been involved with volunteering there for some months now and I love it! people there are really great! It is so much fun to serve than to be served!
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Fasting... day 8

This fasting has been such a blessing for my life!!!! joy! joy! joy! I feel so different!! wow! it's like I don't even want to finish it!!  but I will let Jesus to live through me and in that way He will tell me when to stop it! Yesterday night and today morning I was so missing my dad! I started to miss him more since he passed away already 11 days ago... plus, he was in coma for 34 days ... and I didnt speak the to him the day before he had the stroke... so it is already 45 days without talking to him and I'm missing him, even though I know he's so well in the Father's arms... I know he feels happy, I know it! and it's a great release for m life! but, it doesn't mean I don't miss him.... My dad being in heaven now is like.... I feel that my connection with heaven is stronger. An example to understand what I mean: if your dad works and live at the same house of the president of the country and they are very close and friends... you would feel like you are also important because you can say my dad works and lives with the president... but in this case, it is not the president but the creator of the Universe... and although I experience daily the presence of my Lord God... I feel that my dad being n heaven makes so proud of Him and I can say: hey my dad now lives at the house of the creator of the universe...it is the feeling I have and it makes me really proud and happy to be included in the package...
Talking about other thing... yesterday I started to look for a job... I know my Jesus will give me something that I enjoy to do... I know it! I mean He could give me something I wouldn't enjoy and it would be fine too because HE always have a greater purpose but in this case I know He will give me something that I enjoy to do!!! so great!!!!!
And, finally, I love this song! I sang it with my guitar!

fasting... day 6 and 7

I can tell I spend a great weekend!! The Lord is revealing himself as never before.... I mean, in a different way. He has revealed to me in another also marvelous, amazing ways but now... He's like so familiar to me, He's being revealed to me as a real God, as a friend, as a father, a faithful support in my life, He's never deserted me.. He's always been there... oh I love Him so much! and my feeling when I pray is different. I thought we were already very close but now I can feel Him as a real friend beside me wherever I go. I mean, when I talk to God, I don't talk anymore as I'm talking to a far, inexplicable, at heaven God but as I would talk to the my best friend, the one who loves me and would die for me again, the one who never fails me, the one that I long to be with.... I talk to him as He's here... and He's always been but my feelings before were so weird to think that God was with me but he wasn't with me at he same time because He was in heaven and here but... my mind wasn't clear... I'm not even good at describing my feeling with words... feelings are feelings and are not words...
On Saturday, a Christian couple (much older than us, 55 y old?) came to visit us and I didn't understand why they wanted so badly to come to visit. They wanted to pass by my house and say hi to us, they were traveling from Montreal to their city in Jonquiere and Quebec was on the way... so they wanted to pass by Quebec at my house and tell me how sorry they were about my dad's death. The thing is that they said they would pass at 7 pm.. which was already late but they end up coming and 10:30 pm.. which I didn't consider good.. I was so sleepy and I say : please Lord, help me to see them with your eyes of love and mercy! Well, we talked a lot about my beautiful friend Jesus and then of course they stay at my place and we let them sleep on our bed... At first I thought that I wanted to sleep on my bed but then I thought I was so glad they were going to sleep on my bed and I could show them love! Next day , they say they wanted to go to mu church. My church is in English and they just spoke Spanish and French. I thought, Oh! they will be bored. the day before I was so deeply praying that God would bless the people coming to the Sunday service! and now I think I was praying for them, without knowing it! They said that what they had neverfelt  before what they did that day and the Lord spoke to them words of life and challenge. The Lord has a purpose for their lives and I'm so happy for it! well.... now Im in a hurry, I've gotta go to my aerobic class! working out is something that I am committed with and I can';t stop this habit now!! blessings!!!!!

Fasting...day 6

I feel so blessed! so fulfilled! The Lord is coming back and I don't even know how to explain how I feel... I feel like God is so real... I mean, I knew it before but it's even more real now... I just feel like crying...plans are coming in my head... they always point out  to worship. I would like to invite those women at church that are not involved in anything at church but that yet love God and tell them to sing a special song for the Lord one of these days... I'm planning to go to prayer time tonight at church and to lead them in worship.. many times... those prayers times are very short or dry... and I think worship brings freedom to our hearts...I feel that I can share with power the word of God... as someone with authority... I mean... before I also shared but now...it is different... besides, I feel so much peace and I feel the hand of God over me. I've been reading Ezra and Nehemiah and they say they were blessed and the things turn out well when the hand of God was over them. For example Nehemiah 2:8 , it says and because the gracious hand of my God was upon me the king granted my request. I realized God really likes to bless us... I don't know why I had this concept as theoretical, I guess I was thinking that God was doing his will and many things He does are not a blessing before our eyes but in fact they are blessing. I think this is true but I thought that God maybe didn't care about what we wanted.. I don't know... I didn't think exactly that but it was in my subconscious mind. Now I see God really wants to bless us and give us what we ask... BUT... I saw the example of the israelites: When they were close to God, they won all their battles (but they did have battles), God supplied them with everything but when they started to get away from the Lord... their blessings and their battles were lost and everything took more time when they misbehaved.. but God always listened the sincere heart of those who searched him with all their strength! He came back and blessed them... I see God likes to bless us BUT to have a blessing  we need to pass through trials in many occasions. We have to react in a holy  way to trials... we have to pass the test... God will put us in a superior level then.. but if we don't pass the test! here it comes again, till we pass it and it is not funny! We need to see the the test as the opportunity to go up to a superior level in God... God wants to bless us! I feel like a miracle to understand it! I mean, I thought I understood it but now I know it, now I believe it, now my eyes have been opened to see more of his love... mmmmm God...my dad must be so happy there with you!!!!!
I'm reading the book called: "the shack" and till now it has been a great blessing!!!!!!
My menu yesterday:
Breakfast:
              a mix of yogurt+milk+banana+ apple
               1 coffe
Lunch:
            2 drumsticks in a soup with vegetables
              1 cup of milk
Snack and Supper: water

Fasting... day 5

Wow! yesterday was a hard day for me concerning my fasting... I was so hungry at night, not all the time, but just some moments  and I was about to quit my fasting! I don't know how I could resist! thanks God! I'm not sure how much time this fasting will last, I'd like to fast  for 21 days. I can't promise I'll make it but, hopefully God will lead me and make me do the right thing... I guess my flesh wanted to be stronger yesterday but I said to it: no flesh, you cannot always have what you want... not everything that you want is good for you... this is for Paola's good so don't mess it up!!!! ... lol.. I'm also fasting facebook... I was getting addicted to it...

Today I remembered a time1 year ago when I had a special touch from the Lord... I felt some kind of great anointing for 1 week and I felt so in love with Jesus and I felt like flying! like in heaven! like everything was great even though my problems!... at that time.. I wrote a letter to Jesus... and some months ago I put the words on a song and today I'm posting it... not all the song though... I couldn't make it... because of technical stuffs...

I'm in love with my Jesus because he loves me and saved me

I love him I just wanna feel him

The whole day long

My body stirs my heart moves faster

when He's here and moves around me

I'm in love with my Jesus

How could I live without Him how someone could do it if He fills my whole heart

He gives me love so I am more and more

in love with Him

I’m amazed because He saved me

I don’t understand everything He does

I just trust Him because he loves me so

I know he wouldn’t do anything bad for me I know everything he does is for my good

I love him I love him I love him, Jesus I love you,

I’m in love with you,

how could I live without you i f you move my heart so fast , you are my everything